Grace

Again, long time no post. Very looooonnggg time. Been working, been busy. I've already left the company I worked with since my last post. Then another and now I'm in a new one that requires me to work even in my dreams (it's that bad huh?). I'm now a Dad. That means I am now busier than ever before. Prior this year, I've always thought that I've ran out of time on everything else. I stopped doing many things, mostly things that I love to do. I do not regret anything that I've done. My life has a new meaning now because of my partner and our daughter. But by grace I have more time for everything. How did it happen? Again, by grace. Realized that I cannot do it by my own strength. Wondered why I ever walked away. But that's not important now because I am back.

Refuse to choose!

Many years that have passed, I've been wondering what to do with my life. I want to do so many things. I want to travel, learn photography, learn the piano, blog about nursing, cars, business, my country.... and the list goes on and on.

The list of the things I want to do is as long as the things that I've done. Sports for example: Biking, Karate, Basketball, Volleyball, Golf, etc. I want to be good in all of them, and I did. But a certain point came that I just became bored with it, then I start another sport to do. I just can't seem to finish or stick to anything.

One ordinary day on my way to work, I passed by a bookstore and thought of looking through the books on a particular table that was in my plain view. "It would not take me 10 minutes." I thought. There were a lot of novels, I think all of them are. Then I stumbled upon a book that was different from the rest. The book seemed to be talking to me.

Book: "Don't know what to do with your life?"
Me: "If I say 'yes', that would be awful. So 'sort of' is appropriate."
Book: "Are you drawn to so many things you can't choose one?"
Me: "How did you know?"
Book: "Do you ache to find the right direction so you can settle down and just do it?"
Me: "Have you been reading my personal diary? Wait! I don't have one. Who are you?"

I've bought some books that was like this one, but this particular book is different. I saw myself as I flipped through the pages. I was surprised and found myself laughing from time to time whenever I get the thought of "That's just like me".

According to the author there are people who have intense curiosity about so many unrelated subjects. Individuals who think that sticking to one thing that she loves would be limiting and boring. The bottom line: They want to do so many things but just can't finish anything.

The author, Barbara Sher, gave a title for people like me: A Scanner.

Are you one of us? Are you also a Scanner? Do you also want to do so many things but you are always told to stick to one specialization?

Join me in reading her book: Refuse to Choose! and discover who you are and get equipped with the tools you need as a Scanner.

New place, new life.

It was not easy moving out of our home back in Laguna. When I was packing my stuff, my eyes were teary and I am already missing the place even before I left. But I said to myself that this is another opportunity for me to grow as a person. So, here I am typing this blog in my new home in Batangas. I am just renting the house. I cannot explain the feeling that I got when I first stepped into the house. It's like a mixture of excitement and fear. Excited to start anew but I fear the unknown. This is the first time that I will be away from everything that I've grown up with. But as the president of our company told me and 2 other guys that were with me that day during training that this is the start when we will discover a lot of new things about ourselves--our capabilities. I think he's right. As soon as I got out of the comforts of my previous home, there was nothing to protect me from the realities of life. Now, I have to fend for myself and my future family.

Here's a photo of my home away from home.

The house is twice as big and the lot is thrice as big compared to our home in Laguna. I'm really blessed to have found this place. Big thanks to my friend Jimmy!